the alchemy of reading, part I

“It is part of the alchemy of books that the written word rewrites
itself on the reader and that one thing becomes another as it passes
through various states of change while remaining itself. Don’t tell me
that books are not mysterious – they are.” –Jeanette Winterson

Last night, I settled into bed around eleven o’clock with the novel I started reading over the weekend.  It wasn’t long before I realized my apartment had a curious sense of presence– as if something were in the apartment apart from me and my dog.  On cue, Baxter started to bark in the other room.  Starting to get a little freaked, I got out of bed, put on my slippers, and cautiously opened the bedroom door.  I caught a glimpse of movement across the room and jumped out of my skin, then realized I was seeing my own reflection in the mirror hanging on the bathroom door, which I had left open.  Baxter barked again.  I told him to calm down and go to sleep (trying to convince myself of the same thing).  I went back to my bedroom, shut the door firmly behind me, climbed into bed, and slipped back into my book.  I read for another half hour or so and then, putting the closed book on my nightstand, quickly turned out the light and pulled the covers over my head.  If they can’t see me, I thought, the same thought I’ve had since childhood, falling asleep under similar circumstances, they can’t get me.

All that because I’m reading a book about vampires! The opening chapters of The Historian, by Elizabeth Kostova, lay the groundwork for the plot in teasing, thrilling chapters that so far include mysterious appearances and disappearances, and a father who is too terrified to recount the story of his encounters with Dracula to his daughter and so can only do it in short increments. The text is aware of its place in the scaffolding of the Dracula myth, from the fifteenth century to the present day, but it is no less unsettling for this acknowledgment.

This kind of terror is what Jeanette Winterson alludes to in her recent article in the Times.  In this essay, she observes that there are far too many books being published these days for anyone to read all of them, and indeed, quite few that are worth reading.  How is one to cut a swathe through the literary bracken?  The only real way to read, Winterson writes, is to “follow [your] eccentricities,” wherever they may take you.  For example, here’s where Winterson says her own eccentricities have recently led:

I have just been reading Captain Cook’s
Journals, which made me read
Robinson Crusoe again, which made me think about island
narratives, and has run me towards Boswell and Johnson in the Hebrides,
Marianne Wiggins’s wonderful novel
John Dollar and to Diana Souhami’s award-winning
Selkirk’s Island, which made me order
Coconut Chaos, her new book on Pitcairn.

Isn’t reading fun?

However, I have to disagree with her on one point: her outright dismissal of books on how or what to read, likening them to the “menu turistico beloved of nervous holidaymakers in foreign parts.”  I take issue with this statement on several levels.

In the first place, my eccentricities have led me to the work of Alberto Manguel.  Here’s how: While perusing in my local Barnes and Noble years ago, I came upon a paperback with an alluring name: The Mark of the Angel. I read the back cover and found it took place in Paris.  Sold.  An intellectual fascination (and something more, something more personal) with Nancy Huston was born. Last fall, hearing Huston would be on a panel at Festival America with Margaret Atwood and Edmund White (whose book on Paris I decidedly did not appreciate), I took my little self out to Vincennes to hear her.  And there beside her was a deeply philosophical Argentinian-Canadian, whose comments and works mark him as the heir to Borges and Benjamin.  “Je ne construis pas la vie sans lecture,” he said; when we read, the book becomes part of our “bibliothèque intérieure.”

It’s true: if you want to know who someone is, you can tell a lot from the books they own.  And I don’t mean this as an elitist judgment– it’s not to say that people who don’t keep books aren’t interesting people, or that people who buy and read chick lit aren’t intelligent, but that much can be gleaned about that person’s relationship to their mind and to ideas from their bookshelves. 

After the panel, I went to the book tent, where I bought Une histoire de la lecture(1996) and La Bibliothèque, la nuit (2006) as well as a short work on Borges and added them to my “to read” pile at home. (Manguel also has a book called A Reading Diary: A Passionate Reader’s Reflection on a Year of Books(2004) that I’m hoping to add to my library.)

A few months later, they’re still in my “to read” pile; I’m thinking I may get to them in April or perhaps over the summer. Because I’m so interested in Manguel’s understanding of literature, and the alchemical process of reading, this provides a
good reason for me to read his reading diary.  If I respect a writer,
such as Manguel, Winterson, Huston, then I will be interested to know
what I can learn from their reading habits and journals that could in turn help my own reading and enlarge my understanding of literature and the world we inhabit.  And I’m sure that Manguel will lead me other places, to writers I haven’t read, or to consider those I have in a different light. [Speaking of world we inhabit, Manguel now lives in a farmhouse in Poitou-Charentes.  I wonder how I might angle for an invitation...]

I suspect, however, that Winterson was not alluding to works like those of Manguel, but perhaps to something like How to Read a Poem, by Terry Eagleton (2006), Catching Life by the Throat: How to Read Poetry and Why, by Josephine Hart (2006) , How to Read and Why, by Harold Bloom (2001), or So Many Books, So Little Time: A Year of Passionate Reading, by Sara Nelson (2004), which best seems to prove Winterson’s point: if there are so many books to read and not enough time to read them, why spend time reading about Nelson reading?

Which brings me to my second point, which will consider why we should in fact read Eagleton and Nelson on reading.  But I’ve gone on long enough for now; that’s a post for another day.  To be continued…

encounters

with Judy Garland…

He wore Balenciaga.  I wore Diane von Furstenberg.  Our boyfriends stayed home.  There was much shouting and applause and he lost his voice.

Read more about my night with Rufus as he channeled Judy at Parisist. Ok, I was predisposed to love the show, but so what?

with Marie Antoinette…

I also reviewed the newest biography of the newly trendy monarch, Queen of Fashion: What Marie Antoinette Wore to the Revolution for Parisist.

with time

It is 6:30 pm in Paris and it’s not dark yet.  The sky is a pinkish grey and, though it’s darkening, going forward it’s getting lighter and lighter.

l’ennui d’avoir pensé à moi

Proust
In one of his final responses to the now-legendary Proust Questionnaire, the aforementioned writer replied, upon being asking his present state of mind, "L’ennui d’avoir pensé à moi pour répondre à toutes ces questions."* I must echo Proust’s displeasure as I dutifully direct your attention to an interview I recently gave to Expat Interviews.  While I salute their mission to compile expatriate testimonies in order to help others who might need advice on how to live and work abroad (it would have been nice to have had such material available when I needed it, back in 2000),  I find my responses to be utterly banal, and can hardly bear the sound of my own voice.  But what’s done is done, and it’s a worthy project, so, voilà.

*roughly, "the displeasure/tedium to have had to think of myself in answering all these questions."

On Valentine’s Days past…

Would you be awfully cross if I rebroadcast a post from Valentine’s Day 2005? I had just been dumped two weeks before and had very strong allergic reaction to my first V-Day in Paris. Do have a look at Flashtopian’s comment as well, it’s pretty accurate, I think.

Vday_notre_dame

I’d write a new post but there’s nothing very interesting happening today; I taught all day, I got a sweet card from my mom, and tonight N and I are going for crepes and cider in my neighborhood.  It’s neither an unbearably romantic nor a stulfiyingly negative Valentine’s Day in my neck of the woods.  Baxter would like me to add that he slept in today.
 

What kind of reader are you?

I didn’t need an online quiz to tell me I’m obsessive-compulsive and kind of a snob…

 

What Kind of Reader Are You?
Your Result: Dedicated Reader
 

You are always trying to find the time to get back to your book. You are convinced that the world would be a much better place if only everyone read more.

Obsessive-Compulsive Bookworm
 
Literate Good Citizen
 
Book Snob
 
Non-Reader
 
Fad Reader
 
What Kind of Reader Are You?
Create Your Own Quiz

thanks to Chekhov’s Mistress (Bud’s a snob too so I’m in good company)

Karaoke!

Karaoke
If you read this blog regularly (and god help you if you do) you may have noticed I don’t really do memes. I did one, once, when A White Bear deemed it Post Your Library Online week, but since then, none at all. I never reply to memes when memed; I always mean to but somehow never get around to it…

Well, to try to put some positive meme energy back into the blogobulle, today I’m starting my own meme, in honor of the fact that Coquette is back in town (no, she did not leave Paris for good, ladies and gents) and that Hugo and Julie and I haven’t gone karaoke-ing since we exhausted the offerings at the Taverne de la Butte aux Cailles.

So without further ado I present my favorite karaoke songs (try not to laugh) and tag Hugo, Julie, Coquette and anyone else who wants to play to do the same! Also, if you know a better Parisian karaoke venue than our sad-sack local pub, please share…

Les incontournables de Maîtresse

1) Black Velvet (Alannah Myles)
2) Beautiful (Christina Aguilera)
3) We Belong (Pat Benatar)
4) It Must Have Been Love (Roxette)
5) My Immortal (Evanescence)
6) Milord (Edith Piaf)
7) Summertime (Gershwin)
8) I Can’t Make You Love Me (Bonnie Raitt)

Ok, your turn!

Interdit

Interdit

Last night around Paris, people in public places stabbed one last cigarette into their gueles, and then it became February 1st.  The day they’ve been dreading.  Smoking has now been banned from places like hospitals and metro stations (you know, the kind of places where it never occurs to anyone in the States to smoke, at least in the past 25 years, out of sheer common sense and courtesy). Bars and restaurants will be smoky at least until 2008). 

The point of the law, contrary to some public opinion, is not to limit the rights of smokers ("no, you can’t slowly kill yourself in public!"), but to protect the rights of non-smokers ("please don’t slowly kill me in public").  And with this as my assumption, I casually sauntered into a cafe Tuesday evening and sat down at the closest empty table. 

"Mademoiselle!" an old lady voice screeched from behind the bar. "That’s the smoking section, êtes-vous fumeuse?"

"Non," I replied, "mais ça ne m’embête pas." I don’t mind sitting in the smoking section, I was explaining; I’m not the kind of non-smoker who can’t bear to be within a mile of a cigarette.

"Mais vous devez vous déplacer, Mademoiselle, vous ne pouvez pas y rester!" she was very upset and insisting I move to the "non-smoking" section, two tables down, on the other side of a plaster column.

"Non, mais, je ne suis que pour 15 minutes, franchement, ça ne m’embête pas Madame," trying to explain I was only staying 15 minutes and didn’t care if the people around me were smoking.  Still not getting it.  Then:

"Mais les fumeurs ont besoin de leurs propres tables, il faut que vous vous déplaciez immédiatement!"

Aha. It became clear. She didn’t care about my lungs. She cared about the rights of her smoking clients.  There was a regulation and she was going to stick to it, whether it made sense or not.  Fine. I gathered up my many bags, the exams I had already taken out to begin grading, my pen, my jacket, my scarf, and I moved two tables down, grousing all the while. 

* * *

In other news, yesterday I wrote for about L’auberge espanol for Parisist, and refusing to so much as give a name to my desire, I chose not to mention the name Romain Duris.  And now look what happened: he turned up in my dream last night. A very naughty dream, dreamt while sleeping right beside mon adoré!  This is what comes of repression! So here it is: Romain Duris is so ****ing hot, even in a bad wig, standing in a field of poppies, staring down from those Metro ads for his new Molière film.  There you have it.  N will understand.

Moliere