Yesterday’s post was sad and reflective… nothing like a picture of a puppy to put you right again.
I think I’ll call this shot "Take Me With You."

Baxter, January 2007
Yesterday’s post was sad and reflective… nothing like a picture of a puppy to put you right again.
I think I’ll call this shot "Take Me With You."

Baxter, January 2007
My paternal grandmother died ten eleven years ago this weektoday [I don't know where my brain is, I don't know what day or year it is]. She was a loving, beautiful, challenging, and sometimes difficult woman, and I think, I hope, I take after her in many respects. I know she’d be very proud of me for coming to live in Paris, for my writing, my research, all the things I’ve done and am going to do in my life. She would find my boyfriend handsome, my dog adorable, my apartment tasteful, and my clothing chic (that is, as long as I left the Chuck Taylors at home).
She was a fascinating study in assimilation, born in Italy to fairly well-off Catholic parents, immigrated to America, wed to a (they say) slightly insane but brilliant Jewish engineer, for whom she converted, gave birth to my father, divorced, remarried a (they say) wonderful Jewish real estate developer, moved among the wealthier social circles in Kings Point and Palm Beach. Part Four of her life began after my parents married and my sister and I were born… she took us shopping, to the theatre, to the chicest restaurants in Manhattan, all in her beige Mercedes Benz.
We’re going to Italy in two weeks, and I’d like to say she’d be glad to
hear that as well, since she herself was born in Bari, in 1922. Except
we’re going to Napoli, and I can hear her voice now: "What do you want
to go to Napoli for, it’s the dirtiest city in Italy, the Neapolitans
are trash, don’t go to Napoli, go to Roma, go to Florence, go write
some more of your book in Venice, but Napoli? Pfeh!"
To a certain extent I think she’d admire my efforts to find a comfortable mix between my American identity and my attempts to assimilate in France. She spoke with a light Italian accent all her life, as will I in French. I wonder if she’d appreciate my bringing our family back to Europe, or if she’d think I was crazy for leaving the US. I’ll never know for sure.
Tired of reading about French politics? I just wrote on theatre for Parisist…
On Saturday, I went where no self-respecting left-leaning academic would dare, or deign, to go:
I accompanied a conservative friend to the launching of Philippe de Villiers’s presidential campaign.
Why not, I thought. At least it will be something to blog about! I was not disappointed: plenty of material. Nor was I all that shocked by what I heard there. Mostly just deeply unsettled.
Outside the Mutualité, where the event was held, we were handed fliers that ranged from the far right to the
center-right, from the political to the bizarrely non-political,
calling for us to join a manifestation against the EU, to join
Jean-Marie Le Pen’s "Patriotic Union," accusing Villiers of getting too
close to the UMP (the party of Chirac, Sarkozy, and Villepin), an
anti-abortion pamphlet, and a magazine advocating zero consumption of
alcohol during pregnancy.
Once we got inside,
we found ourselves in a giant "Go France!" pep rally: kids dancing
around onstage to a techno Fur Elise in red, white, and blue t-shirts
reading Je Heart P2V and just plain P2V, people waving flags like they
were on the barricades at the Les Mis finale.
To give you an idea of where to situate "P2V," take this pithy little comment I overheard waiting on line to get inside the Mutualité:
"Ségo has been bought, Sarkozy is garbage, and Le Pen," the speaker’s eyes glimmering with gleeful transgression, "is a bit too far to the left."
Characterising Villiers as to the right of Le Pen seems a bit extreme to me; from what I know of the two, Villiers seems more like Le Pen without the blatant racism and anti-Semitism, without the sinister smirk and cigar. On the contrary, Villiers has the air of a rather intelligent French lumberjack. Imposingly tall and with the rough face of a peasant, Villiers is an entertaining speaker, funny, passionate and, even, compassionate. He professes to care not only about the elite, but the workers, and wants to do for France what he’s done for the Vendée, as several of his supporters, who spoke, emphasized: make sure that everyone who wants a job has one, and can increase his pouvoir d’achat [is that "buying power" in English?].
But this humor and avuncular compassion, sadly, does not allow for the least
difference of origin or sexual preference. It’s too bad. I don’t want
to dislike him. Everything about Villiers calls out to be liked and
respected. Except, and this is an enormous except, for the signs
decorating the room laying out his political opinions.
At first glance they seem to hold water in a libertarian sort of way that seemed potentially valid to me: "Vous préférez l’artisanat à l’assistanat? Moi aussi. Villiers: le bon sens" [You prefer the artisan class to the welfare class? Me too. Villiers: common sense"] or "Ras-le-bol des charges, des taxes, des impots? Moi aussi. [Sick of charges and taxes? Me too]" Then you get a little further on and you see something like "Vous etes pour l’immigration zéro? Moi aussi," which begins to give me pause, being something of an immigrant myself, although my companion assures me that writers and college professors from rich countries are not the immigrants Villiers wants to keep out of France. It’s true that the present policy of mass immigration and regularisation doesn’t seem to be working for France, but that’s just as much the fault of the French model that demands complete assimilation. "Je ne crois pas que l’immigration soit une chance ni pour les Français, ni pour les immigrés! [Immigration is not a good thing, neither for France nor for the immigrants] " Villiers proclaimed. Well, I couldn’t help thinking, perhaps a first step might be to relax the strict distinction between who is French, and who is an immigrant…
But my stomach really turned when I saw the signs reading "Vous etes contre le mariage homo? Moi aussi. [You're against gay marriage? Me too]" That’s when I really started to feel like I was at a gathering of the descendants of Maurras and Barrès, and all the anti-Dreyfusards who would not have welcomed me into their midst at the turn of the last century. To me, the signs against gay marriage seemed excessive and out of place, amongst the complaints at the Socialist overtaxing of the worker and support of the unemployed.
They did, however, make sense once I stepped back and considered that Villiers’s slogan is "La France à 100%," leaving no room in the ratio for anything foreign or "deviant"–as in, not only do you have to be white to be French, you also have to be straight, and you have to view all alternatives to the traditional French family structure as un-French.
In my experience, a nation is comprised of its citizens, and the character of such a nation ought to reflect any evolution of its citizens and their mores. The laws have to keep up with the times, not hearken back nostalgically to some idealised, Edenistic era when France was white and Catholic and , ahem, buggery happened in private and never led to marriage. Society is just not that homogeneous anymore– and would you really want it to be? Looking around at all the white faces, I felt as if the room had been ethnically cleansed. And with all due respect to M. de Villiers, his supporters, and my conservative friend, frankly, it creeped me out.
Although I doubt the Villiers campaign will lead to the Elysée Palace, I do like some of the values he is trying to bring to the fore, like, for example, the idea of restoring pride in being French to the French. I stood amongst the waving flags and felt national pride for my adoptive country, wondering why it is that when I hear the Star Spangled Banner played, it feels irrelevant, American wars, American foundational myths, but when I hear the Marseillaise I fall for it hook, line, and sinker; it’s not the Revolution that does it for me (more honor in being imprisoned in the Bastille than storming it, in my view), but more the idea of being a part of the country that produced Hugo and Cézanne, the fact that Georges Seurat was born around the corner from where I sleep half the time, that George Sand stalked these streets dressed as a man, that Emile Zola looked at Paris and wrote the Rougon-Macquart series, that Stein turned language upside-down from her apartment in the rue de Fleurus.
He is right to try to encourage the French to emerge from their constant self-flagellation, their "juin 40 mentale." It’s just that I find disturbing his willingness to exclude those who would like to share in that pride. My warm and fuzzy feelings for France as my adoptive country are
almost certainly those that any
immigrant by choice feels for their adoptive country, and spending a few hours amongst people for whom "proud to be French" also means excluding others from that pride based on their racial and sexual identity seriously undermined my patriotic buzz.
What do you all think? I know it’s not "cool" to be patriotic, but the sentiment can’t be entirely negative, as long as it’s not being used as an excuse to blow someone else up or keep them from moving into one’s country.

Maitresse at the rally, looking around at the crowd, somewhere between shocked, appalled, speechless, and bemused
Why am I not blogging here today?
Because I’m blogging here!
France in the 1950s: The stains of Vichy have been scrubbed away with extra-concentrated Javel de la IVe République. De Gaulle won’t be in charge til 1959. Beginning of Les Trentes Glorieuses. Women finally have the vote. Trouble in the Suez. Escalating violence in Indochine and Algeria. Most people keep their money in mattresses and in the provinces, indoor plumbing is a luxury. Things are going ok, but they could be going better.
Was that reason enough for France to give in and join the British Commonwealth?
While I was home, I returned a book to the library that I borrowed in 1993.
I didn’t want to but my mother made me. I think we just paid for the book back then because I couldn’t find it, so I figured, hey, we bought it, why give it back?
I’m still not sure why we had to but I guess I wasn’t ever going to crack it open again and there’s no use having it lying around the house… so why not do our civic duty and return it?
We laughed, my mom, my sister and I, as I hopped out of the car and placed it in the book drop, a couple of days before Christmas. "Boy, won’t they be surprised!" we chortled. "That book is fourteen years late!"
But this guy has me beat by thirty-three years. I guess that’s why he made CNN and I just made, well, my own blog.
(link courtesy of my sister!)
PS Want to know what the book was?
Yesterday I received a gift in the mail: a copy of Margaret Atwood’s LADY ORACLE. Many thanks to Tony from Redwood City, CA! How very thoughtful. Looking forward to cracking it open.
I have a funny story involving Margaret Atwood (but then, who doesn’t?). At this past year’s Festival America in Vincennes, I attended a panel on 9/11 in American Literature which featured Atwood, Ken Kalfus, and Nancy Huston. (Jonathan Safran Foer was meant to be there as well, but at the last moment he was unable to make it to France.) Huston responded to questions in her elegant, flawless French; Atwood gamely maintained a fascinating dialect all her own, and Kalfus relied on his interpretor to render his New York vernacular comprehensible to the Frenchies.
Everything Kalfus said, in consequence, was surrounded by a buffer of French. And for this or some other reason known only to herself, Atwood started giving Ken Kalfus a hard time– playfully, of course. At the end of every question she answered, she would lean across Nancy Huston, who sat between them, and ask, cawing, "Isn’t that right, Ken?"
She must have done this at least four or five times– to the extent that it became a running gag and the audience chuckled gleefully as it became more apparent. Kalfus seemed at first unnerved, and then amused, and then almost proud: when you have Margaret Atwood busting your chops, that’s when you know you’re playing with the big kids.
And in other, tangentially related news, my agent has just confirmed that she loves what I sent her of my novel to read. Tonight I shall sleep with sugarplum dreams of Margaret Atwood busting my chops…
[NDLR: and for those readers who are wondering if you're supposed to be sending me books in the mail, too: the answer is, yes! of course you are!]
Happy new year, everyone!
I’m back in Paris and back to being busy as can be. Except what’s occupying me right now is not my normal constellation of teaching-reading-writing. We’re in intense rehearsals for the musical I’m doing, which is called Sur les pas de Fame and bears, finally, little resemblence to either the television series or the movie. We’re not actually opening and running until March, but for reasons
unexplained to the actors, we’re doing a test run this weekend. The co-directors are ambitious: the show’s nowhere near ready. But then, this would hardly be the first time a mess has been pulled together at the very last minute to become a passably good night at the theatre. And they’ve even thought to put some fire beneath our bums: we’re to perform on Saturday night for a group of so-called "professionnels."
So. Though that kind of bait doesn’t do it for me, I do not wish to embarrass myself. And so when I’m not at the theatre running through the show and filming the short movie they’re showing during the finale, I’m working out the kinks in the aria I’m singing in my "audition" for the performing arts school and practicing the funk dance moves we have to launch into for the cafeteria scene. Me dancing funk is an image that I will, underscore, not be inviting anyone to witness, by the way.
Also, I have to learn to say this fast:
Petit pot de beurre
quand te dépetit pot de beurreriseras-tu?
Je me dépetit pot de beurreriserai
quand tous les petits pots de beurre
seront dépetit pot de beurreriseront.
As far as I can tell, it doesn’t even make sense. Nevertheless, memorize it I must. And it ain’t easy!
So I apologize for the relative ralentissement in blog posts, but as you can tell, I have crucially important things to do these days.