italiani pazzi

More on the crazy Italians.  My roommate decided not to move out.  I am pleased because this makes my  life simpler in that it keeps me from having to find a new, more expensive apartment in the next month.  I am somewhat displeased because now I am aware of the fact that I live with someone who has the potential to become completely irrational.  Irrationality being one of my major pet peeves (as I explained to my new boyfriend the other night, in my opinion, flakiness is a minor form of psychosis), I will proceed with caution and hide the good china.

And in other crazy Italian news, my baby sister (who, like me, is one quarter bona fide southern Italian) sent me this link which radically underscores how different Italy is from France: in order to win re-election in April, President Berlusconi has taken a vow of sexual abstinence.

Now, I haven’t watched the French news today (pas de télé dans mon appart) but I can imagine the collective gasp that must have gone across my adoptive land at the news.  "Quoi? A president who doesn’t have zee sex? Who does ‘ee sink ‘ee ees, ze Pope? Why would I want to vote for such a person? If ‘ee cannot lead in zee bedroom, ‘ee cannot lead in zee land!"

This might be a good time for me to mention that I’m currently investigating the possibility of becoming an Italian citizen myself; my father’s mother was born there, and depending on how legally she and her family immigrated to the States, I may be able to repatriate this branch of the family back to Europe.  If that happens, if I were to become Italian, I assume this gives me complete freedom to become erratic and tempestuous.  Andiamo!

truth is stranger than fiction

Faaaaaascinating.  I am fascinated by news that the mighty Oprah Winfrey took little old James Frey to task on her show for having fabricated many of the details and experiences he recounted in his "memoir," A Million Little Pieces. Oprah told James that she and the million of viewers who agree with everything she says felt "betrayed" upon learning, thanks to the website The Smoking Gun’s exhaustive investigation, that he fictionalized his account of his addiction to drugs, his rehab at Hazelden, the amount of time he served in jail (in the book: 3 months; in reality: 3 hours), and the way his girlfriend died.

I suspect it maye have been The Smoking Gun’s lede ("Oprah’s been had") that got Oprah’s ire up more than Frey’s actual embellishments and  ok, lies. Because I’m reading this article in the New York Times scratching my head. Shelley wrote that poets are the unacknowledged legislators of the world, but unless I missed something, no one has updated that sentiment to make Oprah the unacknowledged legislator of the poets of the world.

I haven’t read Frey’s book (with all due respect it’s not really my kind of read), but I have to say it: the Oprah has no clothes. What’s the big freaking deal if a memoirist changes the events of his life around to make a more compelling narrative? The Times reports that Frey told Oprah that "he had developed a tough-guy image of himself as a ‘coping mechanism’ to help address his alcohol and drug addiction. ‘And when I was writing the book,’ he said, ‘instead of being as introspective as I should have been, I clung to that image.’"Seriously– whatever happened to poetic license?

It’s such a strange genre, memoir, difficult to distinguish (if at all) from its generic counterpart, autobiography. The difference between the two may be negligeable, something for literary critics to fight over, but both genres cover an enormous range of purposes. For example, there’s the historic service provided by De Gaulle’s war memoirs; every President of the US these days is expected to set down his view of his administration, providing historians with an irrefutable "he said" point of view. Did anyone think that Clinton’s memoir, My Life, contained unadulterated truth, particularly with regard to his sexual hijinks? The ethics of the famous man memoir are always up for debate, but any autobiographical narrative is, even in the hands of the most meticulous life-writer, a subjective account at best. Simone de Beauvoir didn’t tell half the truth of her life in her memoirs, leaving out most of the juicy bits about her arrangement with Sartre and her sapphic sexual encouters– and it was her choice to do so. She explained later that she did so to protect the personal lives of the people involved.

But this is a different situation; Frey’s book belongs to the genre of memoirs by unfamous people, people whose only reason for writing the book is kind of like some of the explanations I’ve heard for writing a blog: because they’ve lived through something interesting that other people might want to read about. So if it was his life, his experience, and not a life led in the public service, or a life that will form part of the history of famous men, what does it matter if Frey fudged the details? Will we, by which I mean the "millions of betrayed readers" that Oprah refers to, only read a memoir of someone no more famous or important than you or I if that memoirist tells the absolute truth about his particular experience? Why do we cry "no fair" if the little guy’s account isn’t absolutely factually accurate? Is it because we wish we had lived through something important enough to write about? Oprah, of course, has a different scenario at stake; in her own autobiography, as one of the major figures in millennial American culture, she has certain responsabilities to "truth" that Frey, as a nobody, doesn’t have.

Or does it have something to do with the way our culture values a "true story," to the degree that movie posters will always include the tagline "Based on a True Story," if that is the case– to remind the audience that strange things to happen in life, even if theirs is all about their kids’ next soccer game. Or look at the early 21st century obsession with "reality television," which faded as soon as it became clear that the situations, even if they were played by non-actors, were thoroughly choreographed by the producers. Thus the return to the dramatic series– because we can all agree on the fact that "Desperate Housewives" is pure fiction.

I’m writing this quickly because I have other work to get done today, so I feel I’m cutting rather a large swath across this question, but I would be interested to hear other points of view on this…

And in a vaguely related story, Alex Beam of the International Herald Tribune can’t deal with BHL

flashback, 1999

Maitresse channels Gertrude Stein upon her return to New York from Paris, having spent a semester abroad:

We wanted to be there, with our eyes and our hearts and our hands and our minds and our hearts.
I did not want but to be there, and once there I did not want but to be more there, but here was still there and I had to return.  But in the time between here and there and there and here (despite not being "more there"), such dreams would be won!
Yes, definitely we wanted to be there, not here.

I’m going through some of my old writing journals and am tickled by my susceptible prose, defenseless against the effects of reading too  much high modernism!

give maitresse a home

You know– when I decided to take in my Italian roommate there was a little voice in my head warning me that there was a strong possibility she might flake out on me.  I don’t know what it was that tipped me off, but somehow I knew.

And lo and behold, she has informed me this evening that a 350 euro studio in the 6th arrondissement has fallen into her lap and she is moving out to go live there.  Actually, she said she’s deciding whether to take it and she’ll let me know tomorrow.  Which basically amounts to the same thing.

Keep in mind she moved in barely a month ago, and she will have been the third roommate I’ve had since moving in here a year ago.  The first one left to move in with her boyfriend, fair enough.  The second one left cause he found a job in Morocco, ok.  But this– cette histoire d’avoir trouvé quelque chose de moins cher au 6eça me rend folle, quoi!

My options: A) stay put and find roommate number four.  B) Find the impossible: a cute, sizable 1 bedroom (that’s a 2 pieces, dear francophone readers) in a decent neighborhood in my price range.  Say 750, charges comprises.

Please let me know if you hear of anything opening up or anyone nice looking for a place to live… thank you…

my favo(u)rite hot chocolate ever

Julia over at Relookage has asked for everyone’s favorite hot chocolate stories, after regaling us with a tale of how she valiantly sipped one down in the summer heat on the terrace of the Cafe de Flore, then chased it with kir and coffee, all to continue participate in that time-honored Parisian sport of people-watching in the place in Paris to watch the people, Saint Germain-des-Pres.

I’ve had some great hot chocolate in my day, and much of it has been consumed here in Paris– most recently at Angelina’s with my friend Wendy, visiting from New York; then there was another hot chocolate where I remember actually contemplating licking the inside of the porcelain pitcher when the chocolate ran out. Unfortunately I’ve forgotten which cafe that near-lapse of etiquette transpired in, maybe Les Editeurs.

But the most memorable cups of hot chocolate of my life had to be the ones my mom would make during the winters when I was growing up on Long Island. My parents would take my sister and I sledding on the hills at Indian Hollow, my elementary school, and after we tired ourselves out with scooting down what seemed to be the most enormous inclines in our green plastic sleds, they’d take us home, get us out of our ski suits, and my mom would make hot chocolate and put the big marshmallows in it, the kind that get all melty and fuzzy on the outside and lend a marshmallow aura to the top of the cocoa.

I believe my mom’s method was to heat the milk on the stove and add Nestle Quick, the powdered kind, not the syrup. It was the best thing ever, and all the gourmet chocolat à l’ancienne I’ll drink in Paris will never top it.

brokeback. full stop.

Spent the weekend cookin’ and lovin’ and buildin’ furniture with my new beau. Who, it happens, did find his way to this blog, but has inexplicably elected not to read it. Doesn’t he understand I have conducted a fullscale Google operation to backcheck him, and combed through his blog and those of his cohorts to figure out who I’m dealing with, where he’s been, what he’s said and done before we met? As far as I’m concerned a blog is a gimme; a free-for-all of information about our intimates.

Besides that, there’s a basic pride in creation at play here. A writer wants to be read! I’m kind of bummed that he won’t get to admire the precision of my metaphors and [apparently intimidating] commentaries. Now I’m going to be reduced to shameless manoeuvers like accidentally leaving the blog open on his computer screen, turned to a particularly riveting page.

Later this afternoon, after my demure one went home, I caught up with Remy to see "Brokeback Mountain." I have to say, I enjoyed it greatly but I think all the buzz about it being a "gay cowboy" movie was a little overhyped, considering they were actually gay shepherds (clonk! that’s the sound of the audience being knocked over the head with the religious subtext).

There are some peoplewho are crazy obsessed with the film, who are convinced that it is going to change the way gays are perceived in the United States… I wonder.

All in all I found it very beautiful, very sad, and unexpectedly poignant. I was only minorly distracted by the fact that Jen from "Dawson’s Creek" didn’t die at the end of the series, she just moved to Wyoming…

starting at ground level

Well! After what started out innocuously enough in my head, my last post ended up posing THE question for the 21st century, why the heck do we blog… I loved all the responses I got, thank you for being so honest (and I’m sad that two of you have "gone dark," so to speak).

So why do I blog? Who knows. But the things that impelled me to write this evening are basically the same things that make me write in general, no matter what the medium– because I’m so full of random thoughts and powerful impressions, fleeting feelings, things I want to put out there, because, for example, tonight I’m feeling fizzy and — well– effervescent.  Thus pen to paper, or fingers to keyboard.

So effervescent that on today’s trip to Ikea, whereas I might normally have felt as if I were tackling a giant rugby player, negotiating the aisles with an unwieldy shopping cart loaded up with my new dresser, table, chairs, and whatever crap we threw on top of that stuff, today it was as if the shopping cart were the slightest of bubbles I nudged gently towards checkout. The damage to my credit card bill? Barely penetrated my haze. Good thing I can’t drive a standard; I shudder to think how I would have handled Parisian traffic were I behind the wheel and not my roommate Camilla.

Why the haze? Oh… I don’t know… nothing to do with an infatuation with an adorable person I recently started seeing… it’s that amazing part that comes right after you meet someone absolutely amazing who stops you in your tracks and makes you understand, in spite of all the heartache you went through, why things ended with the last one: to make room for this one.  As Camilla reminded me recently, it takes a nail to displace another nail. Thought I’m not sure what that makes me– the hammer? I guess can live with that (wink wink).

Or at least that’s what I’m telling myself– that we go through these things in order to come out on the other side.  But I don’t know that I learned much from these past few searingly sad months–  except maybe how to put those unwelcome feelings aside to make room for new, bubbly, ones, to enjoy the moment and happily anticipate the possibilities for the future.

surf’s up

I’ve been grading papers all week, and you know what that means: logging hours surfing the internet in between reading mind-numbingly boring paragraphs about god knows what, cursing myself for assigning an essay question on the final exam, wishing I taught high school biology so that all the students would have to do is fill in those bubble cards and I could put them through the special bubble card machine and have 100 papers graded in a matter of minutes.

But no, I had to go and teach university, in France no less, which means I occasionally get interesting students who have two thoughts to rub together but mostly I’m stuck trying to explain the English past perfect tense in French.

So while surfing around the ‘net, I’ve found a number of really great blogs, some of which I’ve added to my sidebar on this site, some of which I’ve simply bookmarked and might add later. And, I must say, I’ve read a whole lot of bullsh*t. So much bullsh*t is dumped onto the information highway every day that it makes me greatly call into question what I’m doing here. What makes me think my bullsh*t is any more interesting than other people’s bullsh*t? Some of these people are really accomplished and still can’t write for beans; some are very smart and decent writers but totally uninteresting.

Then there are some people you wish would write more, photograph more, just talk and talk and talk and tell more stories and let you in on their world, and I’m not sure if it’s totally subjective, what sets this group apart from the former group…

It’s a wholly knotty question, the quality of a blog, because it’s all tied up in the positive values of the internet, the newness of it, the excitement of a new creative medium, the democracy of it, the mass accessibility of the means of communication. I have certain theories about the way radical new outbreaks of creativity quickly get subsumed into the mainstream that I won’t get into here, but I do wonder where all this blogging is going and what could possibly come of it.

All I know for sure is that some of these monkeys need to be pried away from their keyboards. And I really hope nobody is reading this posting thinking I’m one of those monkeys!

breaking news

1. One of my college roommates just moved to Paris for six months! without telling me for sure in advance! she just surprised me today! surprise! welcome to Paris, Mini!

2. A recent study indicates that Ashkenazi Jews are descended from the same four women. –does this mean we’re all related? Good thing I’m dating outside of the tribe! Or the family, I guess I should say!

the leaning tower

You can start to build something with the best of intentions for its foundation and totally neglect to choose a site strong enough to support the structure.

Just as I was feeling uninspired in certain departments, paf, along comes inspiration.

I’ve met someone and he has a blog, of sorts, and I’ve been reading it while sipping my morning espresso and listening to the Beatles.

These things have a way of fizzling out and I’m hoping this one doesn’t.

He knows I have a blog, and if he really cares he’ll find his way here soon.  It’s almost a test…

Just imagine: a guy who writes the things he thinks.

[Speaking of which-- Schuey, what happened to your blog??]